Save me, i'm bored.

Would be staying @ home the whole day. Initial plan was to dye my hair, pack my room, pack my wardrobe. But now, i'm simply so lazy to do so. Ahhhhh ! I just want to go out, but i'm so broke now. ): Can money just drop down from the sky, pleaseeeeeeeeeeeeee?! :/

If time could pass alittle slower.

I think i've really neglected this blog of mine. I only come back to update when i'm down, what a good owner i am uh. Loving the new layout very much. Shall change the url real soon when i come across one k.

How i wish time could pass alittle slower, one month had passed. Which means one month of my holidays were gone. I wasted the whole month, by not finding a properly job. ): Sad you know! So many things in my wishlist to be strike off. & i'm so broke now! & worst, i've been spending more & more on foods. I eat when i'm hungry, eat when i feel like eating! How to slim down?! How to save money?! Have not been attending training as well. I'm just so lazy for everything now. Volleyball was once my everyday wanna do thing, but i somehow lost the passion already. Die!

2more days to school re-open. New term, new subjects. Stress again! All i can say is, i really need to work super hard to score good gpa. I can't afford to slack anymore. I wanna go poly!

Aren't any better.

I felt so fuckup the whole day, everything is simply not going smoothly. I felt tired, i tried, but still its either same or worst. Seriously, just fuckmylife.

I really need a place to rant so badly, but definitely not here! On the other note, happy that i've finally met my girls after almost a month. Had heart to heart talk with them. ♥

Which one?

I find this baseball jackets are freaing chio.
But i really dont know which one to get. ):

Topshop? But like over my budget leh! :/

Make over.

Hehehehehehehhe! A make-over for my blog. pretty!

Far away.

失去的，永远都找不回来

虽然心很痛 却只能说 分开以后 我就要远走
There's nothing more for me to say, i'm speechless.
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Gonna nua the whole day @ home. Online shopping, like eye on alot of things. Since im still jobless, i need to save really hard. I'm gonna write a list of wants on a piece of paper & stick it on my wall, so i can remind myself every morning i wake up. Hehe. I'm crazy. 3 more days, & its the end of 2010. Im not excited to countdown @ all. But i seriously hope that 2011 will be a better year. I want to be a happy girl, i want everything to go smoothly k.

Nightmares.

Its been a month plus, why am i still stuck here? I've been trying really hard to get over you, but still every single words of yours, every single actions of yours still effect me so much. Sometimes i just hate myself so much, cause im just being stupid. I'm just making my life miserable. Cause you get over me, the week after we broke up. You're happy with your life, you're enjoying your life everyday. What about me?! No matter how hard i laughed, i still dont feel happy. Every night before i sleep, i will still think about it. But each time, i tell myself you're not worth it @ all. When you're happily enjoying out there, i'm alone crying @ one corner.

I've done so much for you, but you never see it @ all when we were together. You wouldnt know how hard i've tried just to please you. You wouldnt know how it feels. I've never do anything to let you down, but you never want to trust me because of your phobia. But i didnt stop trying, no matter how badly you treat me. Ended up, you're the one who decided to give up. I grant your wish. What's more do you expect from me now?.

I'll remember every single words that you told me. Yes, im a negative person. So?! That's me! In your friend's eyes, i'm always the bad person. I'm a lousy girlfriend. Its okay, cause i know i've tried. Your friend's has got no fucking rights to judge me, by what you told them or whatever shits. Cause they dont know me @ all! I havent grown up, im immature. So?! That is me, if you cant accept it, its your problem! You're the GOOD MAN, you're so perfect in a relationship, unlike me. I'm the cause of all this fucking problems! I deserve everything, i deserve to dwell on everything, i deserve for who i am today, i deserve to be unhappy everyday. I'm not as lucky as you! FUCKMYLIFE!

Seriously, you people should just keep your fucking mouth shut & keep your fucking comments to yourself, bitch! If you cant even handle your own relationship, then mind your own business! Dont be sucha busybody.

Things happen for a reason.

November wasnt a good month after all. Cause lots of things happen in just a short time, but i believe everything happened for a reasons. I admit, the day when you chose to left me i was feeling terrible. Its like the end of my life, i couldnt bring myself up. I cried & cried. Friends were there for me, i really appreciate it. I locked myself up, once i was dismissed from school. I feel so depress. I thought i was strong enough to go through all this, but i was wrong.

Sigh, i dont want to emo anymore. I hope everything will be fine as soon as possible. Please. I want to bring back that smile that was always on my face. ):

#831

Hehehe! I just wanna play with my bb, cause I've got nothing to do ! (:

#830

Beach tournament yesterday from 10am-3pm. Nearly overslept. Met cherlyn @ admiralty & met the others @ vivo city. Overall , the it was a great one. Cause we had a great fought with our opponents. After the event, headed to wavehouse with the the girls for a shower. Seriously, we made hell lots of noise in the toilet. Singing retarded songs & screaming. Okay, obviously is only cherlyn & i. I swear i really laugh till i've got cramps. I enjoyed my day @ the beach really much though i'm so tanned now, till i looks like a cooked lobster.

Went over to chiewchin's crib for steamboat in the late evening. Ate lots of bbq food, & its so damn oily. Thanks to kevyn for putting so much butter onto our food. Haha. I suppose kevyn & i had a great time disturbing jolin with her so-called "lao-gong". Its so hilarious, i didnt know we could be that childish. (*shy!). Drank peach vodka , it tasted so yucky. I dont like it. Left her place around 6plus. It's been really really long since we last had so much fun being together.

My leg & elbow is full of abrasion, cause i'm proud to say that i dived a number of times for the ball. Hehehe!

#829

Heheheh ! I like ! ♥ ♥

#828

Yes, i cried. I cried badly on my way home.
Even on the train from school , a aunty came to approach me, as me if i'm alright. I dont even know if i'm alright. I swear this is the first time i cried out so badly after so many years. I was wishing you would just appear in front of me, wipe my tears away, both hands on my cheek & lending me your shoulder. I know its impossible, i stop myself from thinking. I cried & cried , that's the only thing i know how to do. I'm confused , i feel pain in my heart , i feel tired. I dont know what to do , i dont know who to turn to. I no longer know what's love , i no longer know what's happiness.

The month of july.

Haven't been blogging for almost a month. & i dont really remember what i've done from the day i last blogged till now. All that i remembered was only 12 july, 13 july & not forgetting 14 july.

After months of training, we finally had our inter-ite competition on the 12th of july. That day was a so-called nightmare day for me. I was really very disappointed on how i perform that day & i couldnt even sleep @ night. Those images keep flashing through my mind & i so afraid of the next day match. Totally no confident @ all. But thanks to my 3 babygirls, who sent me those encouraging messages & my best baby who's always by my side. It really brought back my smiles. Overall, Iim still happy that we've got second. Cause we really fought hard.

School resumed on monday, lots to catch up. I wish two years would pass as soon as possible. Because i cant wait to graduate from that course. Two more days to my big day, gonna be one year older. Gonna hit the town tomorrow night, i shall enjoy myself to the max. Scream, laugh, sing to the max ! :D

Do you know ?

Sometimes it's just so hard to make someone understand you.
Sometimes you will wanna let it out cause you feels very terrible inside.
Sometimes when you did your best to do things right, you'll feel sucks in return.
Sometimes when you feels like giving up, you cant bare to leave it behind.
Sometimes when you tolerate & kept quiet, you will also feel tired.

Serious, everything sucks to the max now ! I really hate it ! >:@

Lovely.♥

I found this online, while browsing those lovely hard case. & i love this to the max. I want ! I want ! Hehehe ! (: But i dont know where to get in, sad sad ):

Had my module 2 test yesterday, totally no confident to even score boarder line marks. But at least after studying for like 4days, i finally understand or rather get to know something about this course. I need to buck up already, start studying during the holidays & i must ! (*hope i can do it). Received a message from one of the teammate, saying that training was cancelled.

Went ang mo kio to meet sweetheart, ate @ nebo. Seriously, i love the food there. Never get sick of it. Haha ! Played arcade awhile & we went to karate kid. Thumbs up ! Probably the best movie. The little boy is just way too cute. Haha. After the show, we played L4D for an hour. Then home sweet home. Wheee ! Gonna meet my girls tomorrow ! ♥

Had been busy with school stuff lately & hang out till late night, that explains why i dont have the time to blog. Was so looking forward to thursday's training but end up coach didnt come. Had self training. Do lots of silly things & laughing over it, kinda enjoy. Haha !

I love fridays, cause every friday i dont have to attend school. So , i met baby in the afternoon. Accompanied baby to meet boss @ yew tee. Finally, i get to eat the meatball marnina from subway. Big big thankyou to baby , hehe ! ♥ Went to newurbanmale @ cineleisure to get our slippers. Saw lester, waited for his girlfriend with him & left awhile later. Baby brought me to paragon to eat new zealand natural ice-cream. Yummy !

Then we went to fish&co, for mussels garlic soup. Our favourite ! (: Baby left for work @ 7plus, i waited till 9plus. & we went to starbucks for a drink. Though we had a tiff over a small little things in the afternoon, i still enjoyed my day with you. & i realised, we've been eating the whole day. I'm going malacca in afew hours time. I'm gonna miss you very much ! ):

New environment.

I started my first day of school, on tuesday. I'm really happy to say, i dont have attend school on every friday. Hehehe! I'm not use to everything. I dont understand what the teacher is teaching, i dont understand the course. & exams are just less than 4 months away.

Anyway, i went for the first training yesterday. Wasnt that bad either. But its tiring though, cause its been really long since i last work out. & alittle fitness. Training ended @ 9pm, trained back with cherlyn.

A big thankyou to my sweety who comes to school to meet me for my lunch, fetch me from school & going training with me. Thanks for the long hours of waiting. I love you much. (:

Orhche road.

While waiting for baby to end work @ 313. :/

I waited for baby like 35mins, serve me right for reaching 15mins earlier. Kiasu ! When i was crossing the road, i saw baby with 10 helium balloons. Haha. & its all for me ! But end up i went home with only one big helium balloon & its super big kind. Bigger than my body. I let off 4, gave 4 to a baby boy & one flew off.

So we went to mos for lunch, followed by wisma to get my belt. Then baby's buddy came & we went to the first-to-open toy'r'us in singapore. Basically, we just went there to play. Headed to far east after that. Had drinks & cakes @ tom & toms cafe. Went heeren to meet baby's friend & we ate mac again. Ate too much today, stupid.

Good & bad.

I've received two phone calls today. Should i be happy or not ?. I seriously do not know.

First call, was from the retail store that i went for interviewed quite long ago. They called me afew times before that. & today, they called to confirm with me that they will be hiring me as a part-timer. They told me about the pay & everything, which i think its quite acceptable. We hang up after awhile & 10minutes later, i received a call from ite. My interviewed for the course, is successful.

I really dont know to be happy or what. Firstly, i'm afraid that i will lose that job cause they might not want me after they know i could only work on the weekend. Secondly, i will have less time to spend with bby. & also, i need to meet new friends ): But still , i hope the first day of school will be fun.

I'm gonna get my vans real soon. I've made up my mind. Since i cant find the pink one, i'm gonna get the red one instead.

Peace. ☮

Everything hasn't been good for me lately & i seriously dont wish to mention anything.

So as i mention early on , i went to the beach on tuesday with baby & friends. We stayed for like 3hour plus & we left the beach. Hehehe ! At least, i didnt get any sunburns. Intended to check out the universal studio, but end up we didnt. Cause its not fully open, so i shall wait. We took a skyride & played the luge as well. Back to vivo city for dinner & we slacked awhile @ the open space area. I'm going crazy soon. I've been searching high & low for my vans but i just couldnt find the one that i'm looking for. Why ! Sad.

I had been doing nothing lately. What's wrong with my life? Results will be out tomorrow. ):