Nightmares.

Its been a month plus, why am i still stuck here? I've been trying really hard to get over you, but still every single words of yours, every single actions of yours still effect me so much. Sometimes i just hate myself so much, cause im just being stupid. I'm just making my life miserable. Cause you get over me, the week after we broke up. You're happy with your life, you're enjoying your life everyday. What about me?! No matter how hard i laughed, i still dont feel happy. Every night before i sleep, i will still think about it. But each time, i tell myself you're not worth it @ all. When you're happily enjoying out there, i'm alone crying @ one corner.

I've done so much for you, but you never see it @ all when we were together. You wouldnt know how hard i've tried just to please you. You wouldnt know how it feels. I've never do anything to let you down, but you never want to trust me because of your phobia. But i didnt stop trying, no matter how badly you treat me. Ended up, you're the one who decided to give up. I grant your wish. What's more do you expect from me now?.

I'll remember every single words that you told me. Yes, im a negative person. So?! That's me! In your friend's eyes, i'm always the bad person. I'm a lousy girlfriend. Its okay, cause i know i've tried. Your friend's has got no fucking rights to judge me, by what you told them or whatever shits. Cause they dont know me @ all! I havent grown up, im immature. So?! That is me, if you cant accept it, its your problem! You're the GOOD MAN, you're so perfect in a relationship, unlike me. I'm the cause of all this fucking problems! I deserve everything, i deserve to dwell on everything, i deserve for who i am today, i deserve to be unhappy everyday. I'm not as lucky as you! FUCKMYLIFE!

Seriously, you people should just keep your fucking mouth shut & keep your fucking comments to yourself, bitch! If you cant even handle your own relationship, then mind your own business! Dont be sucha busybody.