Its 4:40am now & i'm still on the phone with you. We talked for about 2 1/2hours. & you fell asleep. I dont dare to hang up the phone, cause i was afraid you might wake up again anytime. & when you need me, i wasnt there for you. Even tough i was having headache & feels like sleeping, i dont dare to say out.
I tried findings topic to talk when you didnt start any. I tried findings news from google, then talk to you about zoo; night safari; jurong bird park; horse riding; ice-skating; snow city; science centre; singapore flyers; escape theme park; ntuc member; nebo member. I was trying really hard to come out with all this shits. & you should know, since the day you knew me i've never got so much things to talk about.
When i was still talking on the phone with you, my tears dripped down. You said i was stupid, you said things that sounds as if i didnt try to find topic to talk about & just being quiet. You didnt see my efforts at all. You dont even know that i've been trying very hard. & also trying very hard to control my temper when you lose yours. I admit, for that few minutes i couldnt control myself & i lose my temper on you. So i said sorry, & started a new topic.
You'll have to wake up in 35mins time to prepare for school. I was thinking, when your alarm rang & you heard me saying good morning to you & knowing that i didnt hang up the phone even when you fell asleep, will you apprecriate me?
Somehow i wish you will, but maybe you wont.
I tried findings topic to talk when you didnt start any. I tried findings news from google, then talk to you about zoo; night safari; jurong bird park; horse riding; ice-skating; snow city; science centre; singapore flyers; escape theme park; ntuc member; nebo member. I was trying really hard to come out with all this shits. & you should know, since the day you knew me i've never got so much things to talk about.
When i was still talking on the phone with you, my tears dripped down. You said i was stupid, you said things that sounds as if i didnt try to find topic to talk about & just being quiet. You didnt see my efforts at all. You dont even know that i've been trying very hard. & also trying very hard to control my temper when you lose yours. I admit, for that few minutes i couldnt control myself & i lose my temper on you. So i said sorry, & started a new topic.
You'll have to wake up in 35mins time to prepare for school. I was thinking, when your alarm rang & you heard me saying good morning to you & knowing that i didnt hang up the phone even when you fell asleep, will you apprecriate me?
Somehow i wish you will, but maybe you wont.